sneaks last night with @anandaelora (and everyone else) for @brendankennedy_’s birthday..
got a salad cause i’m confused about how these things work.
wish i wasn’t falling asleep and could have stayed longer
i’ve lost almost 10 pounds since my break up with my ex-boyfriend and can FINALLY fit back into my old pinup lingerie that I am obsessed with. i felt (still feel) weird about posting myself in my skivvys on tumblr (but then again…its just like a swimsuit right?) anyways…this is me saying FUCK YOU to a society where thighs that touch are considered “gross” and girls with curves are thought to be the “before” pictures in weight loss. well folks, let me tell you this…i feel damn sexy with my curves. sure, there are some insecurities here or there (i am human afterall) but i have learned to love my body so much more since being away from such a toxic relationship. yes, i would love to lose more weight and get down to a healthier bmi…but for the time being…i love my body! i am not going to sit around hating myself until the scale says my goal (which i have done in the past with my unrealstic/unhealthy yo-yo dieting). i have suffered from an eating disorder throughout the past 9 years of my life that comes and goes as it pleases. my ex would constantly comment on my appearance, my weight, what i was eating..etc. in a string of verbal abuse no man will ever throw my way again. so FUCK YOU to the world with an obsession of thinspo, thigh gaps, and unhealthy weightloss. FUCK YOU to ex-boyfriends or men in general who think they can tell a woman what she can and cannot eat or treat her less if she has gained weight within a relationship. people are beautiful no matter what their size is and everyone’s bodies are different. enough with this unrealistic hollywood picture of what “beautiful” is. feel beautiful with how you look right now! because you are. and anyone or anything that tells you differently can FUCK OFF. (pardon my french)